…a funeral today, so posting will be light.
I’ve been thinking about the passage of time lately. I went to a wedding this past Saturday and there was my own childhood friend taking up her role as the mother of the bride. Although her own wedding long ago still seems vivid to me, it sure doesn’t seem recent.
A wedding is a happy occasion, and the one this past weekend was especially joyful because the bride and groom appeared starry-eyed in love, and both families ecstatically happy at the entire state of affairs. Yeah, I know the gloomy statistics, but this one made a believer out of me.
But then there’s today’s funeral. As I grow older, time seems to accelerate in alarming fashion, and funerals will become more frequent. This past July I wrote this about the man whose funeral it is:
Last week I visited two elderly relatives who’ve recently moved to an assisted living facility not too far from me. They’re in their mid-eighties, and although they’ve been married for more than 50 years they live in separate wings of the place, because his problems are physical and she has Alzheimer’s.
These are people who were long known for their lively, upbeat personalities, always fun to be around. He’s still gamely trying to be cheery, despite some pain and enormous fatigue, plus his concern about what’s going on with his wife, but it’s a challenge he doesn’t always meet. He’s the one with the full awareness, after all, which is mainly a blessing but has its drawbacks when things are bleak.
But his wife has no such problems. Her mental state hasn’t deteriorated too much yet. She’s still, as they say, “well oriented”””at least in space, if not in time. She’s aware that he lives in a different building, but she thinks it’s a temporary thing, a sort of hospital, and that they’ll soon be reunited for good. He visits her a couple of times a week, and her ordinarily cheerful personality seems intact so far.
I don’t know whether his wife will be able to understand that he has died. I don’t know what they’ll tell her, and I don’t know what information she’ll be able to retain. Such are the complications of a life so long that the mind wears out before the body—or, in her husband’s case, the body before the mind.
Strangely enough, I’ve written about this same situation before, when I attended the memorial service for a friend’s father who’d died and left behind a wife with Alzheimer’s. Here’s how it was handled then:
But one person was mysteriously missing [from the service]: his wife. They’d met at the age of thirteen and been married for sixty-six long and happy years. I looked around the room but could not find her. Then during the service, the minister explained that no, his wife would not be attending.
I’d known that she was in the middle stages of Alzheimer’s disease. But I also knew that she’d been told about her husband’s death, and since they’d still been living together in an assisted living apartment, surely she felt his absence, whether she could recall it or understand it. But the minister noted that experts in Alzheimer’s had suggested that her attendance at a service such as this would be a pointless cruelty: she would only be saddened by it and yet would not remember it. It would reopen the wound of her husband’s death freshly from moment to moment, to no purpose. And so it had been recommended she stay away, and come down only for the reception and luncheon, which would seem to her a sort of party.
And a sort of party it was, actually. When a 90-year-old dies after a rich full life, that life can mostly be celebrated, although of course there’s grieving, as well.
I ended that post with a quote from Ecclesiastes. It seemed appropriate then, and it seems appropriate now. That’s the thing about Ecclesiastes; it’s always appropriate:
To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted.
A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance”¦